'Cause 2012 has never been this GREAT :)

Note: As you read this whole thing, you will notice some Youtube links. Kindly click them for more dramatic reading. Thank you! HAHAHAHA

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"My 2011 EFF-ender Review".

That was the title of my last year's year-ender blog. I don't need to explain why there's the F on the title. If you read it last year, you know what's in it. I started anew when 2012 said HI. Yeah, there were still some messed up moments but when I summed it up, my 2012 was the total opposite of my 2011. Now, it was more on what I call happiness and contentment.

I learned a lot of lessons and did the everyday application to make things better. At times, it was hard for me to cope up with life, but as time goes by, you'll learn to use the hardships to make everything the best and worth the laughter or tear.

A lot of new people entered my life and few said goodbye, whether it is my choice or fate's,  I have no regrets in letting them be in my life and finally let them go, respectively.

In the earlier part of 2012, I chose to be better. I chose to be SAM. I chose to care more on THE ME than to see myself in the verge of breaking down because I adjusted myself and routine for someone or for everybody. I don't care if I hurt anyone, when I made up my mind, I will go with it. 'Cause my mindset's like, the only person who will be with you at the end of the day, is yourself. No more, no less.

But when I thought that everything that I've done was too much for everyone to handle, I went back to the same old SAM. Because I still care for them. I still care for what they feel, even though, they don't give a single f*ck to whatever they have done to me.

But all of those were in the past already and I've learned to forgive them, step by step.

Just like what I mentioned earlier, 2012 is the total opposite of 2011. So to prove to you that it has been an awesome year, let me show you...

MY 2012 AWESOME AND NOT-SO-AWESOME MOMENTS

If you have any questions, don't hesitate to ask me, but I won't be giving you details. HAHAHAHA! (Just kidding)

2012  NEW YEAR BLAST WITH FAMILY. :)

6TH and LAST BATCH OF SWU DELEGATES.

WEDNESDAY COFFEE AND VIDEOKE BONDING

GRADUATION APPLICATION.

LAST TECHNICAL TASK FOR CLL.

TALEN-TODO SA 2ENTE 5INGKO REHEARSALS.

CRYING OVER FAILED PHONE CALL ATTEMPTS.

FAMILY GET-TOGETHER/S.

HEARTBREAKING TEXT MESSAGES. 

SUICIDAL ATTEMPTS.

BREAKFASTS WITH G. <3

COLD MOMENTS.

BEING ANTI-SOCIAL.

FEBRUARY 4, 2012. 10:46AM.

WEDNESDAY THERAPIES.

HEART-TO-HEART TALK WITH MA'AM CESS.

HERSHEY'S NUGGETS FROM MA'AM EDS. ^_^

MET MAY ANN LANZADERAS.

SIR ALBERT'S AWESOMENESS. :O

OPPORTUNITY TO WORK WITH MA'AM GAY.

3 MONTHS WITHOUT SEEING LAGUNA. :(

THE GROUP'S FIRST ANNIVERSARY.

SECRET BLOGS.

PUP GYM

TALEN-TODO SA 2ENTE 5INGKO

MELVIN BULAN MINA. :)

ABE 4-2-3

TUMBLR POSTS.

CRUSH CONFESSIONS.

SHORT NOTES AND SWEET NOTHINGS.

SAID YES TO A SUPER KILIG PROPOSAL. :)

NEW FRIENDS. BLESSINGS.

FICTIONAL DEATH THREATS. HAHAHAHAHA!

OPENING MYSELF UP. AGAIN.

JHEZA MAY VELARDE ABALOS. :)

FACEBOOK KULITAN AND COMMENTS.

STOLEN SHOTSSS.

VALENTINE'S DAY UNEXPECTED MESSAGES.

CONFUSION.

CLL FAMILY DAY. SENIORS! :D

THAT 3 PAGE BLUE LETTER.

FLIPTOP DAAAAY! >:D<

TEACHING DEMONSTRATIONS

FEBRUARY 25, 2012.

MORE CONFESSIONS.

MA'AM PAULA'S QUESADILLAS.

BEING A RECORDING ARTIST

TRANSCRIBING HIS MESSAGES.

PADYAK MOMENTS SA W604.

COTILLION REHEARSALS.

LOVING MYSELF AGAIN.

MORE 4-2 FRIENDS

"RHYTHM OF ACCEPTANCE" SHOOTING DAYS.

TGAL ==> TOM AND FRIENDS.

FOODTRIP AFTER NIGHT CLASSES.

PUCHU-PUCHUNG CHAPTER 1-3. HAHAHA!

HUGGED SOMEONE AFTER QUITE SOME TIME.

DEMO CLASSES.

CAMEO ROLE :)

FORGIVING MYSELF.

HUGS FROM BEHIND. :">

REGRETS.

T-25 CAST PARTY.

KIM-SAM-MIN. <3

EXTRA POINTS SA EXAMS! XD

DISAPPOINTMENTS.

SWEET GOOD MORNING AND GOOD NIGHT MESSAGES.

THE SMILE WITH WAZZUP. ^_^

BONDING WITH ATE SANDEE AND ATE MICH OVER PANCIT CANTON. 

20TH BIRTHDAY.

ABE SILVER MASQUERADE BALL.

THAT 3-MINUTE MEMORABLE DANCE.

ANTIPOLO ROAD TRIP AFTER THE BALL.

LAMBAK LAST DAYS. :(((

SENIORS' MINI MOVIE PREMIERE

MCDO DATE WITH MEANNE CAPISTRANO.

REKOLITAN. :">

USAPANG MANI! XD

GETTING BACK TOGETHER.

*THE* GROUP: COMPLETE!!!

GRADUATION PROCESS.

LATE COC/CLEARANCE.

INFATUATED LIKE A BOSS.

SENIORS' COLLOQUIUM

MA'AM DESS' BIRTHDAYS: FRIDAY THE 13TH.

THE PROPOSAL THAT I NEVER EXPECTED.

LATE PROCESSING.

SAEHA ELC PHILS. INC. :)

GRAMMAR TRAININGS.

TYCOON CENTER!

COACH AYEN AND DAEKYO :')

I LIKE HIM AGAIN. EVEN MORE.

TEAR JERKING AVPS.

GRADUATION MESSAGES AND LETTERS.

MARCHING MY WAY TO GET MY DEGREE.

GRADUATION CELEB AT RIA'S.

DID SOMETHING BAD. REALLY, REALLY BAD.

SAVED MYSELF FROM A DYING FRIENDSHIP.

THE LAST TIME.

LONG HOLIDAAAYS!

PAMPANGA TRIP WITH TGAL!

YBM SISAPHONE. :))

HELLO THERE, MBC!!! :)

MEET UPS WITH KAPATIDS.

SAMSUNG GALAXY Y S5360 <3 

NEW FRIENDS.

TGAL'S 4TH ANNIVERSARY

HTC 7 MOZART! <3

SOBRANG SLEEPY DAYS.

GOT MY NBI CLEARANCE.

CONTEMPLATING...

STUDENTS WHO TOUCHED MY HEART.

MY FIRST WORLD TEACHER'S DAY :)

SNICKERS FROM MA'AM EMY LAYOS

PERKS OF BEING A WALLFLOWER <3

PUP VISITS.

ALUMNI RUN 2012.

MINI-REUNIONS.

FIRST EVER TRIP TO MONTALBAN.

EAT ALL YOU CAN WITH KAPATIDS.

EASTWOOD CITY!!!

BANCHETTO.

PAYSLIPS.

PEOPLE WHO MADE MY EVERY WORKING DAY LIGHTER.

COLLEGE FRIENDS STILL TEXTING.

CCK CITY NETWORK.

SIR GERALD CRUZ :)

FUN LUNCH TIME!

BATCH 5 WITH FOREVER BUDDY, CHACHA! :)

FREE LUNCH DATES

QUEZON AND BULACAN TRIPS.

"TED!"

CONDITIONALS. *TAKIP TENGA! HAHAHA*

FUN JEEPNEY MOMENTS

CO-EDITORS ^_^

DECEMBER YBM TEAM BUILDING :)

YBM: EVACCUATED!

CUBAO CHRISTMAS TREE

BONDING WITH JHEZA AND LHIZA

HOUSE OF SILVANAS' SANRIVAL!!!

MOVIE DATES

HOUSE OF SILVANAS' RED VELVET CAAAKE!

CHILLIN' LIKE A BOSS

FRIENDS' SMILE :)

FIRST CHRISTMAS WITH WORK

LAUGHING MOMENTS WITH OFFICEMATES

KEITH AND CELINE

NEVER ENDING LAITAN

HYPOCRISY

SILENCE

NEW SHOES :)))

SHAW BLVD. TRAFFIC

"ENGLISH MAJOR BA TALAGA AKO?" MOMENTS

MORE RESOURCES TO HELP OTHERS

FLAT SCREEN TV = HAPPINESS!

FIRST CHRISTMAS PARTY AS AN EMPLOYEE

THE 12-12-12 :")

ZENTEA'S CHOCTEA AND GONG CHA'S MILK CHOCOTEA

MAMA AND PAPA'S APPRECIATION

AGA'S LONG LIST OF REQUESTS. HAHAHA!

SUNDAY WORK

TIRING YET FUN OVERTIME

CHRISTMAS PIG OUT

GOT ADDICTED TO TWITTER. HAHAHA!

SAW JHESTINE EBRON AGAIN. AFTER 2 YEARS.

JANA'S TRIP TO DUBAI. :(

FABULOUS MOMENTS WITH SISTERS

FENGSHUI MODE SA OFFICE.

PAI LATES :(

RECEIVING GIFTS FROM FRIENDS AND OFFICEMATES.

A BOX FULL OF PRESENTS

TOUCHING CHRISTMAS GREETINGS

FIRST CHRISTMAS :')

BONCHOOON CHICKEN. HAHA!

MY FRIENDS' MOMS :)

STAYING AT HOME FOR THE HOLIDAYS.

HAPPY YEAR WITH AWESOME MEMORIES.

I have done a lot of stupid things din in 2012, pero everyone does it naman diba? "...Kung di pa ka nagkakamali, wala ka pang nagagawa..." sabi nga sa isang kanta. You can learn from your own mistakes. Not everything is taught in school, because a whole lot more is learned from outside the school and from the people around you. 

This year made me realize that life has a lot to offer. Has a lot to say and a lot to make you feel. Maybe happy, sad, depressed, lonely, frustrated, etc., but then LIFE is there to show you the options on how to live your life and it's up to you on what you're going to choose. And choose the best option for you and don't care to whatever other people will say. It's your life and you're in control.

There's no room for regrets and there's no room vacant for you to cry. Face life's difficulties and be happy while you're in it. Always remember that there's nothing to complain and there's a lot to feel good about.

It has been a great one. Though certain conditions occur because of my kamoteness and katangahaness. It might be the total opposite of my 2011, but there were some things that will make me think that they are two different years and they don't resemble with each other.

So goodbye Africa and hello high school! (Mean Girls mode?!)

GOODBYE 2012 AND HELLO 2013!!! :D

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

- Sabrina Mari Arroyo Sena, 20, nagmamahal pa rin kahit natuto na XD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GfC0BJlJsbw

A Letter for my Dearest One

Dearest One,

It’s been so long my dear, I’m sorry. I don’t know if I’m still the writer who captures men’s hearts, just like the old times. The pen that I used to hold whenever I write letters suddenly bid its dying note. It took me a long, long time to pull inspiration from the universe, but I’m actually asking for another pen, I never thought that it would be better than a ballpoint I wished all my life.


Why is it that whenever I find the time to put words and describe how handsome you are in my eyes, I can’t find any? At first, I pity myself. Maybe, I’m not an effective writer, and words just don’t want to follow my train of thoughts. I flipped the lexicon’s pages; tried asking experts to give me the idea, but their answers never satisfied me. I asked the Almighty, “I know, I’ve been too bad all my life. All these years, I never followed the Ten Commandments fully. And I don’t know how to pray correctly. Please forgive me if I ate my sister’s banana cake when she’s asleep. That’s stealing – I’m sorry. I hope you’ve forgiven me. Oh! Kindly help looking for the best word to describe him, please? Thank you.” I’m a sinner, but the Almighty is really kind. And He didn’t give the answer I’m looking for right away. He made me think and I thank Him for as time goes by, and I get to know you more, I found the answer.


I can’t find the word to best describe how enlightening it is when your luminescent eyes look my way – you make me insane. Much more, how great it is to see the corners of your eyes wrinkle whenever you laugh – you hypnotize me. And whenever you talk of how magnificent each simple thing is – you make me love the whole world more. I love these things about you, for it describes you. I love it when you fix your hair that wildly blown by the wind, and you curse yourself for not bringing the hair gel with you - you’re still handsome my love. I love it more when you mispronounce some complex words - you’re still the best speaker for me. I love how you try to stop your tears from flowing whenever you watch the late night show – you look good at it. And every time you feel ecstatic when you perfectly got a new step, whether a cultural or modern dance - you’re the cutest being in this world. It’s hard to describe how funny it is to listen to your old jokes and funny stories – they’re always funny despite the cobwebs growing in it.


I love seeing how my happy-go-lucky self transformed into a responsible one because of your pieces of advice. You opened my eyes to a sweet reality that life has something to unfold for us. That in ever bitter failure is a saccharine surprise at the end. You taught me to love the spiders, the caterpillars and even the ants. Your happy aura pulled me to join you and live every single moment this life happily. Whoever I am now, the reason is you. You changed me into someone I never thought existed. I never even knew that I’ve got a funny side too.


My love, this letter is not enough to express how lucky I am to have you. These words aren’t enough to tell you how abandoned I’ll be if one day you decided to leave me alone. I thank God for giving you to me, that instead of giving me another ballpoint pen – he gave me an inspiration to hold the pen again. He gave me the reason to believe that this world loves me too. My love, with you by my side, everything’s possible. Even reaching absolute zero would be very promising in my eyes. Maybe you’re wondering why I entitled “An Empty Love Letter” into this work of mine. That’s how I’d be without you in my life – an empty letter: meaningless, wordless, and worthless. Thank you love, I know I’ll have more and more days to live with you. I love you my dear. Always have that with you. Oh! I’d like to thank you for staying up too late last night just to ask me if I got home safe -- I felt that I am in the safest zone in the world because you want me to be on it. Though we are 31.5 kilometers away from each other, I can still see you dream with me and my dreams are nothing but the sweetest. Good morning my love! I’ll see you after we fix our respective lives so that we can build our own and we need to go to the grocery and buy some stuff for the rainy season. I don't want to go out, for I feel the joy and excitement when I lay my head to your arms and have a nice and deep sleep. Not thinking about what will happen tomorrow, because what matters to us is, NOW.



FROM:
The woman who’ll always be
head-over-heels in love
with you.

First Destination for 2013.

Last weekend was so far the best weekend for me since I started working. Those two days really made me feel blessed, liked, guided, loved and a whole lot more. Thanks to one of my most favorite person on Earth, Celine Bautista and my ever reliable ate, Ate Krishia Cornelio. Though I am sick the whole weekend, I still had the best by spending it with them.

And before I forgot, I am also with one of the most awesome person in the whole wide world. I mean, thank you, Mr. ******! XD

By the way, out of the blue, my friend Celine, just saw a deal on metrodeal.com. In that website, some companies or establishments offer some affordable deals, from small stuffs up to the biggest that one can ever imagine and a GREAT DEAL caught our attention, and that is a deal TRIP TO PALAWAN.

Hahaha! We really want to travel. Actually, we planned to go to Incheon, South Korea pero hindi natuloy kasi, after graduation, we're all busy with our respective jobs.

For those who don't know where on Earth is Palawan's location.

 

There you go! That is the location of our beloved paradise here in the country. :) And another FYI, this is where the new wonder of the world is situated, Puerto Princesa Underground River.

We are planning to visit this next year, preferably March 2013. In time for my 21st birthday! (Another debut!) But before we fly our asses off to that magnificent place, we have to save money for this and to our future plans. But as early as now, I wanna say,"SEE YOU PALAWAN!" ^_^





 

Images courtesy of Google.

Dear Career...

Let me tell you what I feel right now.

I never expected that I will feel this because I know in the first place, I am a bit secured about everything. Today, September 7 is my self-proclaimed day. Why? Because I have seen a lot of career opportunities on my way and all I have to do is take risks and grab them.

My uncle sent me an advertisement from his company with all its job offerings. He is working in telephone company for ages and I believe he has the power to help me land a decent job and of course, salary. I checked it and there you go, lots of job offerings in that group of companies (You might have the slightest idea what company I am referring to) and the nearest possible job for me is customer service representative. It happened to be my dream job while I was studying because it is on its highest peak that time and you'll earn a lot. But as time passes by, you know, dreams and plans change.

Another is, my dear friend way back in college (of course, until now) sent me an invitation to her company. An interview and examination invitation as a proofreader/editor. It is in line with my course. Yeah, English majors are really prone and exposed to proofreading ang editing stuff. It has been our life for 4 years. I like the job, because I can use what I learned from college. (Not the salary muna, I don't have any idea pa. Since this friend of mine and I don't talk about our salaries, really. Right teh?)

This entry is not meant to boast anything or who I am. I am actually nothing compared to other people and I am just a typical fresh graduate who went out of the university and graduated without any concrete plans of what I am going to do with my life.

My problem now is that, I already have a job. I've been here for 5 months and now on probation. So far, I am enjoying my job, because this is my second pick on jobs. Being an online English teacher. (My first one's too good to be just my dream.) My concept of job is not on the salary, REALLY. Maybe that's one point but I am not after with the salary. I believe that as long as you're happy with what you are doing, you'll succeed. But you must accept that it is not instant success. You have strive harder each day for you to attain what you really want and then money comes afterwards.

As of this moment, my mind's really messed up if I am going to do full time on that group of companies of I'd go part time on my friend's company. And when I made up my decision, I don't want to disappoint anyone because of my decisions. Like, you see, I can't handle stray bullets which are meant for me.

Maybe sometimes, all you have to do is to decide and take risks. Because you can't have it all... Rolling in the deep... (Just kidding!) Seriously, you can't have it all. You should've opted to commit suicide if you want to have all those jobs. Hahaha! 

I think, I have two things to do before I decide. First, think and second, of course, pray. :)

Do you feel any PRESSURE right now?

Have you ever had that feeling that the world is on your shoulders and you have nothing to do but to bring it everyday?

As a 20 year old young lady, yes, I do feel that feeling.

It feels like, everybody's fond of pressuring someone most especially if they don't know what you've been through. May mga tao talaga sigurong hobby yung ganun. Yung magbigay ng pressure.

Since I started working last April, (that's a month before I march for my degree) people around me has been doing this scumbag hobby. They want you to do things according to their will. Yeah, I do understand that it is for my own sake and they know what's the best choice in life since they are a lot older than I am. But one thing I don't like about this, is that, being concern is already below the belt. I don't feel the concern anymore. I can feel is the pagiging pakielamera about simple and complex stuff in my life. Like handling money, giving certain people in my life and even the clothes I wear. They want my life to be like theirs, which is according to them, "CLOSE TO PERFECTION".

Sometimes, my parents also do this. They want me to transfer another company because they want me to earn more and save money for me to pursue my graduate studies. Yes, I want to earn more because I am beginning to feel the needs of a working girl, but they can't see my point that everyone must start from the bottom. And those are collectively known as humble beginnings. I know, graduate studies really costs a lot of money, but I think they don't understand my point that I NEED MORE CONFIDENCE to face another chapter in my academic life.

They keep on saying it every time I go home in Laguna. You know, to rest and to sleep even for just 2 days. But it goes the other way around. They've been goofing around me that, I SHOULD GET A NEW JOB and I WON'T BE GETTING ANY FROM WHAT I'VE DOING FOR THE PAST 5 months.

I mean, I am a fresh graduate. I don't want to be bummer at home and I don't think it will be helpful for me and my stressful job that I hear people around me and goofing these things in my head. I wonder, what are they doing way back when they were still 20 and struggling to get a career and a high paid job? What do they feel and do their parents and other people around them do these to them? Like, are you just saying this because you care or you want to manipulate my life?

I don't mean to be rude or to be a scumbag daughter and citizen. I just want to release all these, because I have no one to talk to and I don't think they will understand. Wiw.

A Ballooney Patootey

Aside from my screwed-up sleeping schedule, another thing that keeps me worrying is me gaining weight. Argh! Before I checked my weight earlier this morning, I got the chance to see and check my weight last April (last week of April to be specific) and by that time, I am weighing 60 lbs. It's not normal for a twenty year old gal, but that's my maintaning weight since I entered Senior year, way back when I was in college and plans to lose some pa bit by bit.

But when I got "the opportunity" to check my current weight, I was like, SURPRISED and a bit PISSED. Since May 2012 up to this moment, I gained 10 LBS.! For 4 months, I gained 10 POUNDS. (If you want to convert to kilograms, divide it by 2 then viola! There's the answer for you pal. I am weighing 31, in kilograms) T____T and this is alarming, really.

I really want to cry, not because I don't love myself or my body. But my point is, it is not good to the eyes if you're fat and another thing, a lot of friends told me na "Sam, tumataba ka na naman!". I was like, staying away from all the temptations of food and everything, because I really want to lose weight.

While on my way to work, I had this epiphany that I've been doing a lot of bad habits that caused me to be in those numbers. I won't be proud to present to you...

SAM's BAD HABITS.

1. MY F*CKED UP SLEEPING HABITS. I used to log out from work at 11PM. If you're expecting me to be the sleeping pal by 12:30AM, you are definitely wrong. I will still be your friend at 12:30AM onwards. I usually sleep at 4AM then wakes up at 10-11:30AM. That makes me eat more because I wasn't able to have my breakfast and have the tendency to eat more at lunch time and munch more in merienda time.

2. NO EXERCISE. AT ALL. I no longer jog in the morning, I don't dance na that lot compared to what I've been doing in the 1st quarter of the year, I don't go out a lot, etc. I feel like I am always tired and stuff. Yes, I still do dance. But the pa-cute dance na lang. I miss playing volleyball as well. :(

3. IRREGULAR BOWEL MOVEMENT. I do "the thing" only twice a week. :( If not for the help of herbal teas, I won't be able to visit our bowl every now and then. I've been like this for years now. My mom is always worrying and now that I am 20 years old, she still checks me doing the thing because if not, it might cause colon cancer.

4. I DON'T DRINK WATER THAT MUCH. I am more of a tea person. I find water soooo boring! So plain and not that exciting compared to what tea and other juices offer me and my urine's a bit yellowish that adds alarm to my parents as well.

5. I DON'T EAT VEGETABLES. For me, those green things are like monsters. They should not be disturbed or else, they'll eat you. I only eat 3 vegetables. (And according to articles, these are not considered as vegetables, really. They are half-half. Half-veggie, half-fruit)

6. I DON'T APPRECIATE FRUITS THAT MUCH. I am not a fruity person. I don't eat them unless mandated.

Well, those are some of my allegations on why I am gaining weight again. For you who reads this, take care of yourself or else, you'll become more of a ballooney patootey!

Love your body and maintain a balance yet healthy diet. I got to say HI again to Biguerlai and Kankunis. :(

The person I like and why I like him.

Oh well, I saw this in Joana Beatrice Jance’s tumblr site and I got the “GUTS” to have another blog entry about this person that I LIKEY. :)

You, as my tumblr follower, if you really care about what I blog these past few months or if you really know me, you might have the slightest idea who is the boy that I LIKEY. Well, without much further ado, his name is MELVIN MINA. (Just add “JOHN” before the MELVIN, because he likes it.)

He is 20 years of age and lives in a nearby province somewhere in the North. He is 5’3” in height and just like me, a graduate of Bachelor of Arts, Major in English Language, of course, from the same university, Polytechnic University of the Philippines. Born under the sign of Aquarius and of course, the only G. The only gentleman that I know.

A lot of people, even his classmates says that, he is too odd, too different, not your ordinary or typical boy to know. He’s not that athletic and does not know how to play any musical instrument. Well, I say, that’s it. The reason why I like him is that, he is different. From his points of view to the way he speaks his mind. That’s true, he is not-your-typical-boy-friend-to-talk-about-girls-and-stuff.

Oh c’mon, who does not want to be liked by or to like an odd boy anyway? They are people who are hard to please, but then, they have the small percentage to like you and befriends with you.

”..I hate it when you’re not around and the fact that you didn’t call. But most of all, I hate the way I don’t hate you. Not even little, not even close, not even at all.”

For you to end those freakish questions in mind, I would let you know what keeps me liking this boy until now from the very moment we had our first eye-to-eye.

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Well folks, this, I present to you…

TOP 15 REASONS ON WHY I LIKE THE ODD BOY FROM SOMEWHERE IN THE NORTH.

** insert a Taylor Swift song here. Oh hmm, try the song, “Superman”, aside from the lines, “… Tall, dark and superman…” **
Leggo first to the physique.

1. The ABS and BICEPS. @_@ Imma good girl but when I see him topless or no shirt, I can’t help but to stare longer, then comes back to reality when a friend taps me at the back. Yeah, he is really into something like, body-building. But I don’t want him to be the big guys on TV who lift tons of metals. I just like the way he is NOW.

2. The HEIGHT. When I like a boy, I am not really into the height. Or how high am I gonna put my head up just to stare at him. He is 5’3” and I’m 5’2”. Close enough. I can still reach his forehead when I wipe his sweat.

3. HUMAN WATERFALLS. Yeah, he sweat a lot. I dunno if there is a problem with his skin or what. But one thing I like when he sweats a lot, is that fact that he maintains his good personal hygiene. He does not let sweat interfere with his looks.

4. THE SMELL. Every girl tends to fall in love or to like a guy who smells so good. He does not smell like food or grilled liempo, he smells like a boy-next-door type of man whose sweat contains chemicals that maintains his good smell. :3

5. The PORMA. He wears comfy shirts and over-designed shorts, but it looks good on him. We have a terno polo shirt pa nga. He wears black and gray stripes, while mine is pink and purple. One time, we wore the same polo short unintentionally. (I think, that is our “Manners Matter” Seminar last March.

But he looks hotter when he wears just plain white sando. (Go and read no. 1 again)

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Nuff of the physical aspect. Let’s now go to the real thaaaang. (Wait, whut?!)

6. The acting skills. Yes, he knows how to act. He played several characters in different stage and class room presentations. My favorite is when he played Oberon’s assistant, Puck in a Shakespearean comedy. He did that for 2 times and I can’t help but to stare at him as he amazes the audience with his talent.

7. He knows the right words to say. Whether he is pissed or happy. He knows how to say these, of course, at the right time as well. He knew the right and the bad words.

8. He is too shy. He is and I think, he will always be. I never knew that he can’t make an order on a famous fast food chain. When we had our first date, I told him to order anything that he wants, but I ended up buying the food for the both of us and the cashier’s was like LOL-ing because we are arguing on what to eat.

9. He knows how to SAY SORRY. I mean, SORRY with much sincerity. You can feel it and he will make it up to you as promised. That will be time that you’ll say, “Ahwwwww! Bati na nga tayo G. <3”

10. He is really sweet. Yes, he is. He can do it in ways that you don’t really expect. Like, making you feel blessed and happy with just a thought or two. One thing I like about him is that, he knows the right time to be sweet. Siya ang aking tagapaypay sa lahat ng oras pag mainit lalo na nung ayusan ng graduation papers :)

11. He is into surprises. When I saw my letter for him placed in his Ati-Atihan headdress while doing the show, I was like, super happy! With that, he showed me that he really wants to keep the letter though it is just a short note, and of course, me :)

12. Matured way of thinking. Well, he also acts in a matured way. I know some will say, it is just “PAKITANG TAO.” This, I tell you, it is not. He is the kind of person who uses his mind and heart when making decisions. He is really a grown up man who stands by his beliefs and initial decisions on things.

13. We have the same likes, dislikes, interests and habits. We like slow rock, horror type of movies, American TV shows, food to eat, things to say, favorite subject, same dream course, same missions and same dream job. We want to be published writers, but sad to say, our university, ran out of slots, so we opted a much better course, and that is our degree. AB English.

14. Kinda weird and different view on LOVE and DATING. It is rare for me to hear a guy to say something like, “I want a relationship that will last for a lifetime.”, “Gusto ko yung first girlfriend ko, siya na yung last”, “Ayoko mag-teacher kasi baka di ako mag-asawa sa oras.”. Things like that. Well, he did. He told me those things. He even tried his best to convince me not to apply for a teaching job in a classroom set-up, I may end up an old maid daw. Hahaha! Well, I listened to him and had my job now, an ONLINE ENGLISH TEACHER. And according to him, this is acceptable. :)

15. He is really a gentleman. Before I knew this aforementioned reasons on why I like him, this is the only thing I knew about him. He is really good man and I think in the near future, he will be a good family provider for he is very responsible and does his tasks and responsibilities.

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These are the reasons on why I like Mr. Melvin Mina and why he is my only G. :)

He is such an angel — sometimes.

And there you go, I missed blogging.

Hello there, to whatever-your-name-is. Thank you so much for visiting my not-so-updated-blog. I can't even remember when was the last time I blogged about anything.

By the way, by the time that I've been doing this, I already graduated from school. (HEP HEP HOORAY!)
Today is August 14, so I guess, I am already an alumna for 3 months and 3 days now. Wow, both are threes! XD Sounds non-sensical. And now, I am enjoying my work as an online English teacher for Korean kids and adults. Well, I am really enjoying the work except for the fact that I find it hard to wake up in the morning to do some important stuff. But then, I think, I should get used to it.

Been into 2 get togethers with my life's magic. My brothers and sisters from different men and women, my TRIDEE family. Yeah, we already celebrated Ma'ama Dess' graduation from her doctoral degree and my brother Romar's debut or 21st birthday. Yeah, we are not complete, but I had great time though. Well, I am always having a great time with my kapatids and they are really stress relievers. XD

Right now, I am in our office and waiting for 2130KT or 8:30PM here in Manila for my last class. Hehehehe. So hard-headed of mine to blog while waiting. XD

So yeah, just like any other blog, I'm gonna update you on what's hot and what's not.

Let's have the NOT portion first.

• My friend, Celine and I are NOT YET CLAIMING our NBI clearances. Those were scheduled to be claimed July 11. Hahaha!Yeah, it's now August but we haven't seen our colorless faces in our document. I am planning to get it tomorrow since I don't have work. Because it's a Korean holiday.
• We are not yet applying for SSS ID that will be claimed after a year. Hahahaha! So lazy. No time and no strength to wake up in the morning.
• I still don't have my postal ID. I don't think it's necessary.
• Not yet a registered voter. (So as Celine, I guess.) We are masters of our own documents.
• A freaking Habagat (Monsoon rain and wind) struck the Metro with non-stop raining and rapid flooding. For that, Maggie and I were stranded for 2 straight working days. Letting the two of us sleep in the middle of Manila, Cubao. Wiw.
• I still don't have enough money to go back to school. POOR! How am I supposed to go back to school if I don't have time to enroll for a masteral degree in Ateneo?
• Not yet registered as a Filipino Taxpayer. Again, NO TIME.
• Haven't found the love of my life. (Do I need that? The hell.)
• The internet connection at home sucks. It's broken.
• I lost my "BEST" friend. Unexpectedly, I don't have any regrets, really. Sometimes, you really get tired of understanding and you no longer have the capacity to be there, ALWAYS.

And now, for the HOT part.

• I got my new baby! My brand new, Samsung Galaxy Young S5360. Hahaha! Now you know, where the hell my savings been gone to.
• RamRam the lappy just got his own medication. A reformat. XD
• I am now a full time online teacher. For those who didn't know, I started as a part-time employee. So after they gave me the night schedule, I am happy as hell.
• I got my Transcript of Records, but not yet the diploma. It will be released after a year that a student graduated. (The not part of it is that, my f*cking 5 is still recorded)
• Registered PhilHealth member already! YEHEY! XD
• Got addicted to 7-11's French Vanilla Cappucino. SO YUMMY! New addiction.
• I got the opportunity to share my experiences in my current work with the Junior years in CLL. So glad, that I've been a great help though not so fulfilled yet. (Thank you Sir Rolly!)
• I am now earning money to somehow support the family.
• My lovable C3 is still alive.
• Mr. G  <3 is still alive. (OH C'MON!)
• Been addicted to 9GAG these past few months.
• Been addicted to Instagram, too. (If you have Instagram account, follow me at sabsena)
• Planning to have a gala with my GROUP-mates, but there's still no final plans. I guess, we just have to do it on the holiday season. LOL)
• Met NEW friends and buddies at work.
• Appreciated late night animation. (EG. The Family Guy, The Cleveland Show and American Dad! SO FUNNY. LOL)
• Knew that there are still a few good people to get help and support from.
• Been infatuated but revived like a boss!
• No lovelife, but still, happy with friends and family.
• But eyeing for a friend! HAHAHAHA. I've been sounding like a bitch.

Oh well, a lot of things really happen after you graduate from school. That's part of life though and sticking to your original plan is a not-so-good move to make things better. Ohw! How come I made it to that point. Well, just updating this blog and its readers if it has any. Hahaha!

Will update more often now... since I have all the time in the world. XD

XOXO,
Sam ^_^

Before calendars turns to the 11th and clocks strikes to 8 AM.

Uy ah? Hindi ito isang madramang blog entry. Ayoko kasi ng ganun eh. Pero sige, kung hindi mo mapipigilan, oh eto tissue, pampunas mo ng pawis. :D


Kanina, nasa PUP ako. I am with a friend named Ria. Sabi ko sa kanya, nakakainis. Kasi kung kailan paalis na kami, saka pa inayos yung mala-obstacle course na catwalk sa main building. Dagdag mo pa yung ang ganda ng arrangement ng bricks. Lakas lang maka-extension ng IUD lane AKA Teresa.


Four years din ako sa PUP. Apat na masasayang taon. It may irritate, piss and squeeze out the kid in me, but I will still be very thankful and be glad that I wasted four years of my life in PUP.


Noong bata ako, akala ko ang pag-aaral ay isang madaling proseso lang. Makikinig ka kay teacher, sasagot ng worksheet at makikipagdaldalan sa katabi. Ganun kasimple. Pero habang tumatagal, hindi lang pala simpleng pakikipag-chikahan ang magagawa mo, pwede ka din palang matuto ng iilang bagay sa buhay. Pwedeng isa itong amazing fact galing sa teacher mo o turo ng kaklase mo.


Mula sa simpleng ABC hanggang sa IPA. Ang primary colors pala na RED, BLUE and YELLOW ay may HUE, BRIGHTNESS at REDNESS palang tinatawag. Ang resulta ng MDAS eh pwede pa lang maging MEAN, MEDIAN at MODE ng dalawang numero. Ang simpleng pagbabasa ng signs sa kalye eh pwedeng ma-improve sa pag-aanalyze ng sonnets ni Anne Sexton at William Shakespeare.

Habang tumatagal, humihirap. Habang tumatagal, dumadami. Pero aminin mo din, habang tumatagal, lalong sumasaya.


Hindi ka tunay na estudyante kung di ka natuto ng iilang bagay mula sa kaklase mo. Hindi kita matatawag na TRUE LEARNER dun, sorry.


Ngayong college, madami akong natutunan. At ito ang iilan sa kanila:

IPA, Louise Gluck, William Shakespeare, Languages, Linguistics, Phonemics, Morphology, Sonnets 87 and 116, Brocka's Aphasia, Parts of the Brain, LINGUA FRANCA, Folk Dance steps, maging Technical Girl ng 3 years, MAGMAHAL NG TUNAY AT KAKAIBA, Mock Orange, American English, open-mindedness, listening skills, reading comprehension, kumick-back, tumakas ng gala, maging isang tunay na kaibigan, magpatawad, READING COMPREHENSION, pumunta ng Pasong Tirad, Makati, kumain na 20 lang ang pera, mag-vandal, umakyat ng Antipolo Church pag may 5, umiyak sa corridor, mag-alaga ng lasing, mag-LRT,  maging bayani, umuwi ng TO... TOMORROW,  at mga marami pang iba.


Wag kang echusera! Ayoko ng bumalik ng college. Baka cleared nako sa lahat at kukuha na ng passes sa Monday?


Ang sinasabi ko lang is worth it ang lahat. Sa lahat ng pinagdaanan, iniyak, ipinila, isinigaw, isinakripisyo at lahat lahat. Pero hindi ako magiging masaya kung wala akong kasama mag-saya, umiyak at mainis sa mga bagay bagay kaya ittake ko na ang opportunity na ito para magpasalamat sa kanilang lahat.


Una, sa mala-eroplanong PUP, na hinayaan na makapasa ang isang SABRINA SENA.


Sa CLL- Extension office, ang saksing buhay sa pagtulog at pagpapahinga ko pag walang kasama.


Sa CLL-AVR na naging bahay ko ng 1 month dahil sa rehearsals ng Talen-todo sa 2ente 5ingko at sa pagiging unang lugar kung saan nabuo ang "LOVE STORY" namin.


Sa W411. Sa pagiging una kong classroom.


Sa W409. Kahit na mainit eh love ko rin. Dun din kasi ako umiiyak eh.


Sa W413. Minsan lang tayong nagsama pero mahal din kita.


Sa W415. Home of ABE -3 2008-2012. Yun ang saksi ng lahat ng kabiguan, tagumpay, kalokohan, ka-seryosohan, tawanan, katarantaduhan, irita at naging biktima din ng vandal ko. Mamimiss ko ang station ko dun, ang tabi ng bintana.


Sa BUONG WEST WING. Sorry kung minsan tumatakbo ako sayo ah? Late na kasi ako sa klase. Hehehe.


Sa University Canteen na naging takbuhan ko pag nagugutom ako pero tinatamad akong bumaba ng ground floor.


Sa 4th floor South wing bridge, ang naging party place to be ko simula 1st year hanggang 4th year (GEMs Christmas Party 2008-2010, T-25 Cast Party)


Sa Charlie del Rosario, ang venue ng Chinese Exhibit at rehearsals ng Shakespeare.


Sa Quezon City Circle, ang takbuhan ng mga batang gustong mag-picnic, gusto mo manuod ng dancing fountain, mga batang broken hearted at minsan rehearsals din :)


Sa Marikina City, sa pagiging rehearsal ground din. Lalo na sa Lambak. Sana hindi pa huli ang pagkikita natin nung nag-edit kami ng movie.


Sa Antipolo Church, salamat ah? HAHA. Alam mo na yun.


Sa SM CENTERPOINT. Sa pagiging tambayan ng barkada, laruan din ng lahat kasi may Worlds of Fun at Quantum sa taas at Tom's World sa food court. Salamat din kasi nauso ang tig-25 na sine. Thank you din pala kasi hindi pumapalya ang aircon mo, malamig pa rin siya.


Sa Claro M. Recto Hall, sa Filipino folkdance presentation ng ABE 2-3, Shakespeare Drama Fest at unang casting para sa concert kung saan nawindang ako pero keri lang.


Sa PUP Oval na binilad ako sa ilalim ng init ng araw sa loob ng isang school year.


Sa PUP-ICTC na kahit may inaway kami ni Camille nung enrollment, eh inaccommodate pa rin kami. Sana hindi niyo makalimutan ang nanay ko. :D

Sa Student's Lounge, sa tabi ng Sampaguita Canteen. Dun ko kasi laging nakikita si crush dati. Nyahahaha!


Sa West Wing EVEN (Advertising). Kung saan dun ako laging kumukuha ng vacant chair na hila hila ko hanggang sa West Wing Odd. :D


Sa Lagoon, ang unang tambayan ko. Na kahit hinigad ang kalahati ng mukha ko nung 1st year, 1st semester, eh naging mabait pa rin sa akin.


Sa W604 at sa mga professor ko na nagsstay dun. Sorry po kung nagwala at umiyak ako minsan. Hehehe. Mas madami naman po yung itinawa at inginiti ko dun.


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To Ma'am Mary Grace Ferrer, na nung mga panahon na nag-eenroll ako eh ayaw niya ata sa kantang Realize ni Colbie Caillat. Siya yung nag-interview sa akin :)


To Dr. Mely Padilla, for making me realize that I chose the right and perfect course for me. Kasi kung hindi, sasabihan ka niya ng SHAME ON YOU.


To Prof. Edelyn Mariano, ang unang professor na nagpakaba at nagpatalon sa puso na doble sa normal na talon nito.


To Dr. Valentino Jasul na nagturo sa akin na ang isang kind of sentence ay hindi EXCLAMATORY, it's EXCLAMATIVE.


To Engr. Cortez ng College of Science, kasi hindi niya nakita ang barkada ko sa Freedom Park nung di kami umattend ng Mathematics in Business nung Valentines' Day nung 2009.


Kay Prof. Jhoanna Gomez, para sa libreng insurance.


Kay Prof. Jeffrey Bartilet na nagmistulang lullaby sa hapon pag 1:30-3PM.


Kay Dr. Estrelita Bagsic na naging susi para for the first time, maging legal ang punta ko ng Star City.


Kay Prof. Dekki Morales, ang pinaka-cool na Sociology professor! Kampay Sir! :)


Kay Sir Adrian Guinto, na napangiti ko sa klase kahit isang beses lang dahil sa misunderstood step ko sa front portion ng classroom.


Kay Dr. Corazon P. San Juan, sa walang sawang pagpirma ng letter of request ko sa tutorial. (Methods of Research and Thesis Writing)


Kay Dr. Zenaida de Leon na pinagdadasal lagi ang buong klase, mula paggising sa umaga hanggang pagtulog sa gabi.


Kay Prof. Nico Tarrayo sa pagtuturo sa amin ng 3 magkakasunod ng semester (Structure of the English Language, Anglo-American Literature and Teaching English as a Second Language) at sa pag-iintroduce sa amin kay Anne Sexton. Nice meeting her through you, Sir  :)


Kay Prof. Ma. Cecilia Angeles, sa hindi mabilang na advice nung ako ay nawawala sa kawalan at sa paghila sa akin pabalik sa mundong ginagalawan ko. Sa pagiging nanay-nanay-an, for being my GEMs adviser, mentor, but never my subject professor.


Kay Prof. Ma. Paula Arevalo-Destacamento, kasi akala ko dati, masungit siya dahil medyo nasungitan niya ako nung first encounter namin, yun naman  pala, ubod ng bait at sarap magluto.


Kay Prof. Pia Merla Hilario-Esperida, para po sa buena-mano kong 3, sa pagiging nanay din, sa pagbibigay ng challenge sa amin ni Camille para makuha ang accreditation certificate ng GEMs at para din sa masayang masayang birthday party ko este Graduation Ball.


Kay Prof. Edelyn Dagnalan. Rock and roll Tiya! Sa pagiging sobrang mabait na teacher at nagbigay sa akin ng pang-finale kong uno para sa Structure of the Filipino Language. Thank you po sa copy ng movie nila Ma'am! ^_^


Kay Prof. soon-to-be Dr. Desserie Maynes, ang aking original na nanay. Ang aking takbuhan kapag may problema at punong taga-payo din sa iba't-ibang oras. Tulad ni Ma'am Cess, hinila din niya ako pabalik sa mundo at wag na wag na daw akong lumabas sa classroom kung kailangan ko ng kausap.


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Ang haba na! May part 2 pa ito :)

And I was like TORN between...

Helping myself out on my own and seeking professional help.


Before 2011 ended, one month to go to be exact, I did another stupid act that made me think of choosing what was mentioned above. I mean, it is a very personal issue to tackle it with a friend or someone whom I trust. Actually, I was really worried with myself and still asking what happened, what's happening and what will happen to me if I'll be able to choose one.


(I will mention what I've been through that week. But it was really an emotional, psychological and effing week for me. Forgot the dates 'cause it was really a heck of unfortunate events that I need to drop it off)


I visited my ninang, who is also a psychiatrist. I was on my own, 'cause I don't want my parents to know that I went to a professional instead of talking to them. I was having jitters as I walk through the hospital corridors and looking for someone to turn to.


As I entered the room, I saw nothing but piles of psychiatric books. I am afraid to dare myself to get one, but I ended up reading one. The book is about, well obviously, about disorders and unusual behavior and its causes. My eyes was nailed to one page and read the whole thing about it.


It is about SCHIZOPHRENIA.


As I was absorbing what I've read, my ninang came and asked me what pushed me to pay a visit, but since she is a psychiatrist and a stargazer of her own (Just joking! LOL), I think she already knew what made me ride a jeep, a bus and a tricycle from PUP-Sta. Mesa to North Fairview.


She let me speak and be calm at the same time. I told her the whole story and she gave me some advice on how to get over it and move on. Then eventually, she told me that I have symptoms of SCHIZOPHRENIA. She said, I need to seek for professional help and she'd be very willing to extend a hand, rest assured that no one in the family will know; but as per her words, she reiterates that finding a friend to talk to at times and can be a constant companion, is the best cure of all. She even said these lines, "Learning to trust that person maybe hard, but for you to help yourself, it is best to find that person and spill what's on your heart and mind." (OH C'MON! HAHAHA)


But seriously speaking, I am really torn between finding that person and seeking professional advice.


Do I sound LIKE I need help?