If you know how to be happy,

The world has nothing to do with it. It might as well be cooperative. 


Happiness comes in ways you don't know.


>>:D<<

On The View Of The Heavier and Guilty Side...

After keeping my mouth shut and after all the stress that we've put ourselves into, HERE I AM, saying my silent piece without anyone noticing it without anyone reading it.

So there you are. I think all of you are not dumb to feel what's between. I've been ignoring everything since day one. From all those "wrong sent" messages to constant murmuring. Oh! I guess, now I know. I've been "the talk of the back."

And now is my turn to let this all out. Why? Cause I can't take it anymore.

Since my 'hibernation' from the group, you know that there's always a reason behind it. I am busy with some serious stuff, which happens to help you too. And I believe, I don't have any shortcomings when you need me and I have done much, I mean, so much on my part. I never thought that, that 'hibernation' will be permanent enough for me to think that I really deserve the word, "SCRATCH".

I am now taking the blame. The blame, in which, I do believe, I deserve. I always think that you will always be with me and you don't have anything more to think of. I feel sorry for myself for giving to much or more of myself which you didn't ask for, so with that, you don't owe me anything.

While I was in my busiest days, I am hoping that when the day comes that I will be free from what I am with for the past two years, I'll get back what I have lost and bond with you again, I just thought that when I come back, you will still be there and willing to welcome me again with open arms and update me with your own respective lives, but then again, you didn't ask for it, so we ourselves, don't owe each other anything. 

Believe me; I am trying to get back in track. Until a new bunch of people, introduced their selves to me and considered me as someone to be treasured and loved. Which, to tell you frankly, for the last 3 years, I didn't felt when I was with you. They were there, when you're busy talking behind me and fabricating stories that I did these and I did that. I never expected that those faces will be right before my eyes when I was expecting yours. 

I felt like, they were my new family, which happens to be true and accurate. I never expected that they will be as warm as the sun and make me feel so important. I've been so grateful to have them, until I remembered that you have the narrowest minds in town. I don't mean to be cynical or what, but we must accept that it's true. That even the smallest things on earth needs to be discussed with just your opinions and views surrounding it, that when you say it, IT IS ALREADY FINAL and NO OBJECTIONS TO BE CONSIDERED.

I always understand that we have different situations, we have contrasting points of view and yet we remain to be friends. But I just don't understand the point on why we have to act like selfish high school kids being bothered by a b*tch or talk behind someone when they see or notice something wrong. I just don't think we act on our ages and we practice maturity. I can't remember a time that I did such thing to you or to anyone of you and I didn't remember that I let someone sit on the hot seat whenever there are forums.

Yeah, I am considering everyone from the group, pathetic and hypocrite. Why can't we just blame each other's faces and tell each other the mere fact that we are all imperfect and live without considering and pleasing other people.

For a period of time, I have already seen some of your attitudes and I am disappointed that as a friend, I was not able to do anything to make it right or even to lessen hypocrisy, to think that we're together for the last 3 years of our lives. Excruciating facts. Sorry if all of these came from me. 

It saddens me to know that I don't think there are still chances to talk or to discuss CERTAIN MATTERS that needs much of our attention. But after all of what I scribbled tonight, I am still hoping that someday, somewhere, somehow, we'll be able to fix things and gather up what we have lost.

I may be happy with them, but it is a different feeling when I am with you.

Ending this not-so-long-yet-short piece,

Sam

*THE* Group (July 25, 2011)

My ever-loves *The* Group :)))

Eternity

I was actually inspired by some of my friends to write a song 'cause for them, I have this and I have that. Whatever they are. Hahaha

Now, I'm gonna publish one of the most "PINAKATATAGO" song. I even searched for this on my laptop files though it's dead for quite some time now. With the title, "ETERNITY"

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V1:
Though you never know
I would like to stand beside you
Spend most of my time
And waste every second doing none
It was another dream that waits
Another illusion meant to last

Refrain:
If only I had the courage to say,
"Will you be mine?"

Chorus:
Those stars lights the night
Just like what you did with mine
I wonder if you ever thought of me
Just like the way I think of you
Did it ever crossed your mind
That I will take you to eternity

V2:
Will you let me take you with me
Or even for a lifetime
I will choose to be with you
Even if it means letting everything go
Cause life itself is not life
When you're away from me

If only I had the courage to say,

"Will you be mine?"

Those stars lights the night

Just like what you did with mine

I wonder if you ever thought of me

Just like the way I think of you

Did it ever crossed your mind

That I will take you to eternity

Bridge:

With all things I said,

Though you don't hear this

I just want you to feel this

This heart

Dreams to be yours

Dreams you to be mine

Those stars lights the night

Just like what you did with mine

I wonder if you ever thought of me

Just like the way I think of you

Did it ever crossed your mind

That I will take you to eternity

If this is...

If this happened just for the sake of nothingness, I would rather have it blank and leave it with the note, "No Turning Back".
If this happened just to change everything I feel, I would make it another chapter of stupidity.

I know this happened for a reason, for a reason that is known by no one.

I am sorry for the damage that I have done and  for being stupid after all. It is a year and a half. I almost gave up everything but I ended up losing the fight that I have been conquering since day one. I may never notice what happened to us, what happened to me. I will keep it on my mind that I loved you and I need to do this for us to be happy as plain friends.

Friends just like before. This is not giving up. I never gave up. It is more like I want you to be happy and I want it for real.

Now, there's another who's trying to steal me away from everything. Don't worry, I'll be more careful this time.


Thank you and be happy :)

"Lahat pwede magsabi ng 'Mahal kita' pero hindi ang 'Mahal din kita'"


Ang swerte niya sayo. Kasi mahal mo din siya. Gagawin ko na tong tumblr. Kasi di ako makapagpost dun, kasi alam kong mababasa mo at ayokong mabasa mo. Baka kasi hindi mo ituloy yung balak mo na umalis kasi ngayon ko pa napiling mag-drama kung kailan nagbabalak tayo umalis. Baka i-tweet mo na naman ako, di mo na naman ako pansinin sa FB o kaya sa text. Kaya mas mabuti na yung hindi mo nalalaman.


Akala ko kasi OK na ko ee. OK na. Tanggap ko na hindi na. Na wala na. Na hindi na ako aasa kahit na anong mangyari. Pero bakit ganon? Isang klik lang. Ni hindi na nga kita iniisip ee. Tapos biglang ganun. Masakit pa rin isaksak sa kokote ko na wala na. Na hindi ko na dapat isipin yun kasi masaya ka na. At ako? Trying so hard to forget what I felt for the past year, knowing na alam kong imposible siya.


Mahal na mahal pa rin kita. Kahit na walang namagitan sa atin na kahit na ano, binigay mo sa akin lahat ng magagandang dahilan para mahalin ka at lahat ng pangit na dahilan na wag kita mahalin, pero ganun pa rin ee. Mahal pa rin kita. Mahal na mahal T.T


Kahit na hindi ko na kaya. Kahit pagod nako tumingin mula sa malayo. Ganun pa rin.


AKALA KO OK NA AKO!